I will blog More

That will be my new years revolution. I don't know who reads but its like a journal you can never throw away. I have feelings and i'm not the best at remembering them. however if i blog them then they are here forever. There is a down side to that. If I say something then a few years later I wish I hadn't its to late.

Well time for the update. I have a dog, my car is fixed, still have the apartment and job. No man at the time. I gained a few pounds some like it while others don't.

I will be graduating soon. But not on time maybe a semester late but i'm okay with that. You cant rush perfection.

I Talk To YOU

I haven’t been speaking. I have noticed that, I let people in more that’s a great thing. But I only really speak to my mom Adrian and my man. I haven’t been speaking. It’s like a teenager who feel alone and refuses to talk to the counselor. My friends feel like because they read a few college level books or seen some television shows they know everyone. But I don’t want to talk because I don’t want them to try and know me.

Because are they really even my friends. I get an apartment and all of a sudden I’m never alone. I like having friends it’s different for me but is it the right thing for me. I’m not someone who looks into the future. I like the now and being alone. It’s safe.

When others are involved there is uncertainty and pain. 

the Face of No sleep

This is the face of a college student I have had like 3 hours of sleep and I had a final at 12 30 and paper due at 4 and a class that lasted from 2 till 3:15. Now I am taking an online class from 4 till 6 and then I have work. This is the last stressful day hopefully. 

I'm a scholastic cheater sorry blogger

I’m sorry my followers but I have been cheating on you with another blog. Don’t worry its for a class so as soon as its over which is in the next week all my blogging time will go to you. I had a wonderful idea though from my assignment. What if I added podcasts to my once in a while blogging? I recently did one for an assignment and I think I did great. I had to make an outline for the class as if I was expecting to continue this podcast over the span of five weeks so I did. And now I think I want to actually do it. I’m going to post the link to the blog and let me know what you think. I might just go with it. 

The Real Way Podcast Ft. Ell Maxwell

Shafer really?

My feet hurt from working so hard. But I have to let the world in on my job and my findings of Shafer. So I have been sitting back catching the tee’s as my friends would like to say, and all the girls have either had sex with someone working at Shafer or one of the boss’s.

Crazy hu, so naturally they are all trying to get at me. But I have been to busy trying to get the hell up out of there or getting a pay raise. This one girl that use to work with me, not I said use to… she was stealing cans and cans of food and bags and bags of noodles home everyday, crazy right well she got fired. I was a little happy because I never really liked her. She wasn’t about her shit and would put all the works on me.

Then I had one of the new guys who didn’t know that I don’t deal with Shafer employees ask me for my number it was so sad because I new and everyone around know that he wasn’t getting my number. No one there not even the boss has my number. They email me if they need me to come in. So I tired to nicely say no. But that wasn’t the end of it. The next day he came up to me and asked again and when I said no he said “im a get your number sooner or later”. WOW Shafer guy wow. 

We Running Things

Its finally drawing near to the ending of the semester. No more will I be a junior. Senior year should be a thrill but where will I live. What will be of my car? There are so many uncertainties. As far as the summer goes it sounds like it may be a breeze just hoping I still have a job at Shafer over the summer we will see how that plays out. If not I guess I’ll be jobless and penny less.

"15 theres still time for you" 100 years Five for Fighter .

Life what can you say it has its twist and turns. But I can say I’m not where I want to be for the rest of my life so I have not started looking for anything stable as of yet as in relationships. But at dinner my friend asked a question that I have not been able to get out of my head. All the while I’m suppose to be studying for this test in a few hours. But he said at this point in your life do you think you have gained any life long friends? And I really had to think for a while. Well at dinner I gave the answer of the 7 close people to me. But I can’t really say for sure that these people will be life long friends. When are you suppose to know who your life long friends are. Is there some type of application? I would guess that college is the best place to meet these people because in all the movies you see the main characters meet their friends in college be it a sorority or a fraternity or roommates what have you. So am I behind have I lost my friends or am I suppose to keep looking. Because when I was elementary I swore that the girls in my basketball team was going to be my friends for the rest of my life. Well my mom cut that short.

The only dilemma that I have with this is you never really know who your friends are until you go through life changing situations. Or sometime you have a friend that isn’t really a friend and you never really know. Like what if you have a friend and the whole while they were talking about you to another group of friends or their diary? Or what if you say you have found your life long friends but then you don’t remember to add a friend in the list then that friend will be mad. I’m going to keep thinking on this topic but I just wanted to share some of my thoughts with the web. 

100 years Five for Fighter is the song playing as I write this.