Yay VCU

Its homecoming weekend again and I really wish I had my own wipe I would have gone home and got my best friend so she could share this with me. But no worries next time ill have a car and a apartment so it will def work. I miss her like to the fullest. It’s crazy how comfy I feel around her. I mean my VCU friends are great don’t get me wrong. But its nothing like having some one who really knows you. We have been friends since I wanna say junior high school. Off and on of course what girl friendship doesn’t have its ups and downs. Like we both liked the same guy and the same time and it wasn’t just once lls. Well I’m going out and I’m going to have fun it’s a 3 party weekend and we just getting started GO Rams GO. 

Just a little note

I’m a working women I been real pressed to say that lately; because honestly I never really had a set schedule at forever 21. So now at Shafer that I know what time to come in and how much I’m suppose to get paid and all that I feel a little bit grown. Now lets cross our fingers and hope I save enough for summer school and an apartment in time. 

Making moves.

I worked my first day at my job today. The next time I work ill try and take a pic of me in my uniform. Seeing as today I just throw something together and it wasn’t really what I was supposed to be in. The computer went offline so we had to hand write a lot of the numbers. But it came back on. Not very exciting but I’m making some money which is way better then I been doing for almost 21 years. But no really.

Everyday I wake up I think my car is going to show up parked outside of my building. But everyday I am disappointed. Don’t worry though things will get better they already have.

This morning for some odd reason I woke up at 9 and went to Shafer with my friend. And as I was walking in I found 20 dollars on the floor. Ain’t that something else? Well nothing else special happened except for the fact that I went to the gym alone and stayed to my workout plain. It was great.

Till next time. 

I'm a shapely female

Even when I’m trying to fly below the radar my body puts be in the four front. Like tonight I want to go out just to be out and have a little fun. But every dress I put on makes me feel like a video vixen. I really just want to be left the hell alone sometimes but it’s the curse of my family. My mom always said the Bedeau’s have big behinds. I just hope I marry a man who’s family doesn’t so that our daughter will have a slight one. 

There is a problem with mankind

I am not saying that it’s a problem that I am willing to master. We man and women want so much that we forget to see what we already have. Yesterday I found out that I got a job on campus that pays ok for how surprisingly easy it is; but when one thing doesn’t go my way, ie my GPA is to low. I wanted to cry and stomp around like a child who lost their favorite sock.

I want for what I can’t have. This is a good thing, wanting for something more gives you the ability to try harder. But what happens when you want for something that isn’t in the books for you. How would you know when to give up, when to say I have don’t my bit and this just isn’t right for me? I’m struggling with a lot of personal decisions.

All I can hope is that one day life will get a bit easier. But then there will be nothing exciting. Now we can’t have that.  

Can I tell ya something

I remember feeling like the world would show its face sometime. I have been feeling blessed for the longest time. But as I cross the true threshold of ignorance to a undoubtedly sense of knowledge I found time to realize ones choice of spiritual being cant force you to be in the right place for your blessings. 

Life won’t always turn out for the best because man wish it so. This happens to the best of us being as though we forget to fight the good fight. There are times that are allocated to slip ups and things. But don’t blame them things on anyone else but yourself. 

It’s the new years and no man is perfect and even if him wish it so there are times of weakness and that is why we are man. With flaws that make us beautify imperfect.

 I found my face today. A funny thing to say right?

Have you ever gone for a month or two with out looking at your self in the mirror. You formulate an idea of what it is your nose and eyes look like. Begin to adjust your belief to what you look like. And today the person whom I did think I looked like for 3 months and a few hours was who was looking at me in the mirror.