I haven’t been speaking. I have noticed that, I let people in more that’s a great thing. But I only really speak to my mom Adrian and my man. I haven’t been speaking. It’s like a teenager who feel alone and refuses to talk to the counselor. My friends feel like because they read a few college level books or seen some television shows they know everyone. But I don’t want to talk because I don’t want them to try and know me.
Because are they really even my friends. I get an apartment and all of a sudden I’m never alone. I like having friends it’s different for me but is it the right thing for me. I’m not someone who looks into the future. I like the now and being alone. It’s safe.
When others are involved there is uncertainty and pain.
