Get it done

You know what being busy isn’t so bad. Honestly like you forget how tired you are when you realize how much you have accomplished; and I plain on accomplishing so much more this year. That’s just a thought I wanted to start this off with.

But I wanted to talk about the day when you introduce yourself to the class. ie hi my name is Rebecca and I am a sophomore etc. I always seem to feel like oh I want yall to know that I do this and I do that. But it’s never enough time to get that out. Unless you are the very out spoken type of person who doesn’t mind taking up a half hour to tell the class about you likes dislikes, your thoughts on the war, the oil spill ect.

My shoes came for my birthday weekend. Although I’m not super hyped about the dress, the shoes say yes I’m grown. And that’s all I wanted. I’m not rich I can’t buy the birthday dress I really wanted but I found the shoes!!!

I went to a couple of meetings today, one was for a job and the other for BSU: Black Student Union; this is almost like NAACP. And I heard this amazing statement. Well the person who said it heard it from someone else but that’s ok. He said something to the extent that you should just want to breathe. I know I have to put it in a way where you can understand what he was saying. But I just wanted to put those words out there on their own, because they stood out the most.

Basically a man came up to a very wealthy person and said something to the effect that they wanted to be as rich as this person and have all the things they had. So the wealthy person said if you want to be rich meet me at the beach at 8 am tomorrow morning. So the person did. When they got there the wealthy person said go out in the water till you ant go anymore. To shorten the story they guy did and the wealthy person held the guys head under the water for a short period of time. Then let him up. And asked what were you thinking while you were under the water? The guy responded that he just wanted to breathe.

And I’m not going to keep pushing this story ill let it sit. But too many black people want to be rich quick and famous. But we all need to understand we need to strive for some more realist goals first. This may be just breathing, just being able to get up in a house or apartment; just being able to get in a car or on a back or the bus, like really. And have a job or a means for living. We need to be able to reach for those which we can achieve and once we get there strive higher. But don’t expect to go from 0 to 60.

One of my lil sisters had a child.

We have to back track. She is about a month or two younger. So as you can tell she is not my mother’s child. This for her was the ultimate no no. Off the jump she never really liked me. So after a summer when we fought I decided to be the bigger person and leave it alone.

But when I heard she had a baby even myself, the type of person that doesn’t like to say I was wrong or show feelings. I had to let her know I was there for her and wanted to be in her daughter’s life.

This decision was based on the situation that my mother and her younger sister is going through. My aunt has a boyfriend that the family does not approve of. But she went and got married anyway.

Jumping to the point my mom has decided to cut off contact with her sister. This unfortunately means no contact with the niece. Who has to live in a house with a lot of unreasonable decisions? And I never want to have to put any of my nieces or nephews through that.

My niece is a beauty. Well of course she is my nieces so you know we fly no matter what llls.

Enjoy the pics.

New year New memories

School has started and I already have a migraine. For those who are interested in my plains for life. I am interested in being a school consoler. So my major is psychology, and over the summer I decided that I would need to take some education classes in order to prepare my self for grad school.

I knew not to go to my advising office as soon as school got back so I waited to the Friday after classes started. After talking with an advisor I found out that I was taking two classes that were based on the same material. However one was for Psychology and the other was for Education. So I was wondering if I could take the education class and have it count towards both psychology and education or vice versa. But that was a no go.

I have a meeting with an education advisor this Friday coming. Let’s hope she can do something to help me work this out.

Other then that im good. I don’t have to be the president of CompleX although I love this group I have two on site / off campus classes. One is for mentoring and I’m not sure about the other one.

I been trying to make a little bit of money working the club scene at the door, and from this pass weekend I made enough money to finish paying for my books. Cause lord knows books aren’t cheep; especially when they contain so much knowledge.

No boy trouble I know that’s boring but I’m fine with being boring in that sense as long as I get the hell out of this year in one piece and without a child.

The talent inside out.

Shout out to my cohort Devin. He’s doing big things with his art. Here is a snip of his work.

Simple Things & Times. Nothing Extravagant.

It’s a cold world we live in. But yesterday I had the time of my life, doing some of the simplest things. I went to the pool with the girls. We ate pizza, watched the bad girls club. And then went to a hip hop show. Like this is what I always wanted my days to be like. The simple times we have with our friends mean the most. Because then you know there is nothing fake about your friendship. If you can hang out and have fun with each other doing noting extravagant like going to the club, getting dressed up, or getting messed up on toxins. Then yall are really friends like really.

Ohh I'm getting to old for these talks.

You know when you were younger you had this idea of what you were going to do and not do when you were older. Or what you would say to your younger siblings when they came to that age when they were having sex. Well I'm at that age.

My lil brother had come out of his mouth on the day of my pre birthday with my family and told the folk he has had sex.

Welp needless to say my pre birthday was over.

I didn't know what to say. What do you say to a boy that is having sex in a city where the girls are so confused that every week they change their sexual preference. Or that say yes they want it but in the next moment they are accusing you of raping them. What do i say to him when he could get something that could kill him at this age?

I don't know but I'm hoping the folks do so that he can live to get to my age when he doesn't know what to say to his nieces and nephews.

When?

Life has been moving so fast this summer came and went with a breeze

And I can honesty say I am happy for my many friends who have accomplished much this summer. But I can’t help feeling like my life is not moving. Nothing knew and exciting is happing. No new news has come my way and I have not gotten any close to my dreams. I’m only as successful as I can be but I can’t help feel like compared to everyone else nothing is going on in my life.