These Negros make me mad

I deserve to be loved out loud
Deserve flowers and cheesecake
Cant stand backward stepping Negros
Won’t keep the company of a bad chick like I
So stand back creeping Negros
Look out you down low hoes
Cause ill bust your shit and won’t look back

I sit in silence
And he holds me
With a air of importance
Not a strand of my hair will fall
With out his attention paid in full
It takes only a moment in his day to notice
That love isn’t a feeling it’s a way of living
A bunch of time pulled together to form a stepping
Stone silent is how I like my men

I’m busy what can I say. I’m looking forward to spreading my self thin so that I can’t notice all the good loving I’m missing out on. So I have no boy trouble to talk about. I’m not gay, I haven’t gotten a car yet, I living in a dorm and like anyone else I don’t get alone with my roommate but she thinks were the best of friends…. I’m modeling hears are some pictures

I’m looking into moving, I want to move but I’m not sure if VCU will let me out of the contract. I’m in school so I feel smarter everyday. Drinking like what I bet god doesn’t like it, but I’m not sure if I want to stop.

The poem isn’t about anyone, I just didn’t want to go to sleep at 9 so I decided to write. TTYL

Just stay you

SO yall it didn’t work out for me and the boy but hey it’s ok. I hope he found true love with the girl he keeps telling me was just and friend and nothing more, I guess he got tired of lying to himself.

But I have grown a bit I feel like I’m not afraid to go after what I want. I haven’t been drinking as much cups of hot chocolate so that’s helping me lose weight lol. I went after this other boy I liked he’s in a fraternity not saying no names and he likes me… but hey it will never work we all know why.

I do feel like I’m missing something or someone. Like, I wonder some times why I haven’t I found that one to be like “oh I remember in college there was this one boy that I thought was the one and we were together for x amount of time”.

Lol I just want a relationship for real, a job would be nice to. A friend of mine told me you have to just go for it and keep going cause sooner then later there going to get tired of telling you no. I think ill try and adapt that to a lot more then job interviews.

My mom’s two cents in all of this was that you just have to be a bit pickier with who you talk to. And I never wanted to be one of those up tight I’m to good for this boy type of girl but I guess that’s what they want or that’s what keeps them up at night dreaming about you, so that’s what they will get….

Chow me amigos.

Till next time stay black

or white

or Asian

just stay you. lol