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So i feel like the worst person in the world. I didnt wright a blog yesterday because i wanted to kill myself. But i got over that with the help of my God. I cant really say that anything good has heppend to me. I feel like i faked out on one of the good friends that i did have left. If i could do like all over i would deff get down on one knee and ask this guy to marry me. But life doesnt always work the way i want it to. I will go to bed now and wake up and go to a dance show at my school to support my friend Reggie. Then ill take an exam maybe a few pop quizz and start the week all over. Thank God that there is always a tomarrow.

Its rainging.

So today i have to mail off this math book to a lady that lived across the street and wont return my emails so i got to pay 3 dollors to mail it right across the fing street. What ever she probably think im some kind of rapest or vires trying to get into her computer. lol

No classes.....My dreads look dead.... I wanna go to trinidad ware the sun shines even when it rains, and we drink hot coco in the heat of the night. ugh



So I walk to the post office the line is outside the door. This time the line moves much faster and im out of there in half and hour. Then i go to shafer ware the food is always the same. Make a walfle then strut back to my room to finish my essay and work on my other outstanding assingments. Reggie come over to get the Psy book because he has decided to change his major to Psychology.

Then I looked at ATL for a while and feel asleep. What a night lol

Monday yeah!!!!

I woke up felling rejovanated and i just knew today was going to be my day. Went to class like always and chilled with reggie at shafer. Went to Don's room and he helped me with my Bio quiz. Then the day ended and now im on the web writing about my boring day. Thanks followers.

Mommy, Donnie & Brandon

Today was a quiet day went to class, did my lab and my mom came to spend the night with me in a twin size bed. Before her Brandon stoped by to watch the bootleg Bedtime story, which i must say is funny.

We ordered pizza and my friend donnie came over to meet mom dukes. But he was drunk. lol what an impression. lukly i have cool mom and she didnt care she was to tired to care. So I spent my night babying a grown man who thought he left his iron on and was scared that he would burn down the entired doorm building. Silly boys.

so i thought wensday was friday

Im losing my ming. I didnt wanna put down all the things that were bothing me yeaterday but now that i have come throught them a bit more ill let a little bit out. I hadn't come on my period at the right time so i was freaking out. But i came and it hurts, then i have been feeling fat like most black women do but i was about to take it to a whole nother level so i am thankful for my new friend Olivia for letting me in on what doing these this will do to your body. Throwing up after eating will mess up your teeth ( i have paid to much money on these to be messing them up) you hair will fall out ( okay so hair falling out while your trying to get dreads is most likley not a good look) The your breath will stink ( i have had my fair share of stinkiy breath freinds and family ( MIke) sorry wont be one of them) so i dont know yet what to do. Cant go to the gym like i want cause 1 i dont know what im doing 2 i dont have anyone to help me 3 its not fun for me 4 i look even more fat when im at the gym.

I found the Blue bible that I have been looking for. Since i left richmond that night when i was little i have been wondering ware my vhs collecetion of this was. And today i have found something better its on You Tube. Its called Psalty Kids. I have fallen back in love with it. But unfoutionly i ran out of money so i cant buy the dvd collection. But as soon as i get my hands on some money oh you bet im going to get that.

And i have to say i feel sorry for boys because some shop will hire any one to cut your hair. A friend im not going to say the name but he got his hair cut today and the man fd it up really bad. So bad that he is thinking about goin bauld just to get his hair to grow back in right.

Ive grown tired

The day has begun and my weryness has to. I am now tired of school. I woke up before my alram clock got out of bed at 9 and my class doesn't start till 11. And I am tired. I went to class to hear a teacher tell me exactly what I have already heard from the book that they made me pay for and read instead of having a fun weekend. So now I am saying the words that are coming out of her mouth because they are word for word from the book. And I am tired. Then I go to a class ware we are suppose to communicat about how we feel about our reading and.... no one has read. I feel like a dip shit that needs to say fuck school they will read it to me later. WHAT the hell is going on I am paying for this. Give me something I have to fight for. Teach me more the the book can offer.

Tuesday 20th, 2009

retraction= I do have one follower sorry, I got beside my self yesterday.



Today Barock H Obama (I think thats how they said it) was sworn in as President of the United States of America. His speach was awsom so much I will say later when I have a printed copy. But He is such a gansgter (words from my moma) this man got out of his car and is walking down Penn ave to the parade. What more do we have to say.



The day is a quiet day as I expected, every one seemes to be glued to the tv only leaving to pee and maybe running into class to chatch a bit of the lectures.



I don't think that I have mentioned thus far on the blog but I have family in trinidad and tabago and they are also glued to there chairs, my grandmother called my mom this moring and cursed her out because she was not on the mail and was in her bed sleep. (Ha Ha you never get to old to get in trouble) .My mother then in turned called me and yelled at me because I was not watching T.V. The one thing in life that she had told me could do with out she was now made because I wasn't following along. lol

Weekend

I know I dont have any followers but on weekends I will not be posting.... But since its mondayyy. I would like to start off with Happy MLK day to everyone he has touched with his dream. I really have nothing else to explain. I spent my day in reflection on how I have been living my life, and if I am still following the dream...

The end of the week (Flap Jakes B DAY!!!)

So I wake up to a man snooring in my bed. Yuk lol my new best friend stayed over. Go figure. well he didnt go to class. I went to my lab for bio. Along with the list of other classes I have. I was so glade that in most classes were a review.

I called BRANDON WILLIAMS trying to wish him a happy birthday. Like a good girlfriend should, but there was no answer left a message no response thus far. But im not going to trip. Its his birthday i just hope that he has fun. :(... He called back I got to say happy birthday, thought he was coming over,, but never happen.

What ever I finally got my book for statisitcs. Mind you it was cold asssss wow out side. I am pretty sure I had on three outsifts with my long red pecoat. And I was still cold. So I had to come from class print out the confermation page go to barnes an nobles and get the book. I have retreated to my room and guess what.....

My new BFf wants me to come and keep him compony on the job at Chillies. Then they have a fire drill and they lost somthing around a thousand dollors. And I feel so bad because I have not heard from Reggie letting me know what wrong with him. (He's been really sick).

I pray god has mercy on us for we know not what we have done, and this cold weather is killing me. I want to go to Trinidad NOW>>>>>

Night

Chillis with my new BFF Don

Today was a better day. I had no classes, i bought my book for statistics ( but i still have to wait to get the book). And i went to chillies with my new male friend. Reggies feels like death, and we finally got him regestureed for classes.

So now we go more in depth.

The stat book only cost 44 dollors and i sold a book on amazon for like 61 dollors yeah!!! No classes and i didnt do any work. I know bad.

I meet up with Reggie at shafer and we chilled for a while and then Don my new male friend came just to chill cause his class got canclled <> Went and meet his advisor Shawn and she is the best.

Went to the post office and then like the line was out the store. I didnt know how to mail a text book like forreal who mails a text book. the lady was real nice but i could tell that she wanted to be an ass. but who could be mean to Ashley Boo right. lol

Went to reggies new place watched love and B ball then left him still sick and went to chillies to meet my besty Don. We stayed there for a while like a long ass time lol. Slowest chillies ever lol.

LEft out and the cold was taking chunks out of us. By the time we got back in a bulding (J Hall) we had to sit and recreat our selves before we could talk. Then we faught.... i beat his ass like a couple of times. We got tired and fell asleep and it was an all in all cool night. Im so happy that i have a new BFF.

Rena....

Today I really like really did not wanna get up.



But I did cause I'm paying for this education. Every class seemed to go by so fast. I have a class at 11 INTL, 12 UNIV, 1 STAT, then at 3 BIOL. I really just wanted it all to stop.



After my last class I went to shafer to eat lunch with a good friend



let's take a moment to talk about him, he's the cuites, nicest guy that I have meet at VCU thus far. He has not made any sexual moves on me and respects the fact that I have a boyfriend. Many other boys would have shut this joint down. But he's different he fights with me and he even let me paint his fingernail.

But any way we stayed in shafer till like 7 and he meet one of my best friends Reggie shooting starts starling.

Then my friend Rena and her room mate came over and invited me to the gym, Well they kinda told me I was going I had no choice.

I got on the elipticals (spelling by Donnie) and i stayed on for like 30 mins. Then I worked on my abs.

But yo there was like so many people in there. I think it was because of the whole new years revaluations thing. Watch by say late Feb they will be gone.

Any way I would like to take this moment to say I am tired and am so happy that I have the day off tomorrow.

My first Tues with no classes.

Today I didnt have any classes.

Like that onle was great. But the sad thing is I thought that I was going to get a job on these days because I wouldn't have any classes. But when I realized how much reading and work that I had coming, I (Roxy) decided that I would use these days to get my work done, maybe some sleep and going to the gym. Now some people really want me to start working out, you know to mantain my shape, but thats for a later date when I feel like talking about that.

Back to school I'm going for that 3.5 this time around. Last semseter i busted my but and recived well earned 3 B's and a C, which adds up to a 2.7. I'm hoping that ill get that 3.5 and make myself proud.

I talked to a old friend, I'm not going to talk about who they are all I want to say is truth be told I really don't know what my problam with you was from the start. Hopeful we can step past that. For all thoses who haven't talked to me during break. Chad(ex boyfriend from trinidad) and I are no longer talking. He disrespected my name and thus is now on my bad side. I have a new tatto, it is on the back of my kneck, my dad doesn't know. So if you know him then don't tell him.

I retwisted my hair, yes I am working on dreads. For all the hater (mommy) I will be keeping my hair up and I will have dreads by the summer time watch me. I went to the Delta founders day event at the Commons. For all those that didnt go you truly did miss a wonerful event.

After a couple of people went to Shafer (the cafe). And I would like to take this time to say that I am disiapointed in Shafer, I came back thinking there would be some type of change, rearangement, new flavors something. But theres the same bugers, pizza, and the salde bar didn't have any lettuce. Very disapointing.

Oh and my roommate has moved a tent into her bed. Just wanted to put that out there cause I have to look at it every day.

Friday i had

I have been feeling bad for myself because i have lost some friends, and i cant really find a way to make new ones. But i learned that just puting myself out there is not enough. I have to believe in what i am saying and the fact that i am a good person who deserves good friends. One day ill be out partying again and it will be because i know that i will be happy with me and not be trying to fit in with the WE.