I Talk To YOU

I haven’t been speaking. I have noticed that, I let people in more that’s a great thing. But I only really speak to my mom Adrian and my man. I haven’t been speaking. It’s like a teenager who feel alone and refuses to talk to the counselor. My friends feel like because they read a few college level books or seen some television shows they know everyone. But I don’t want to talk because I don’t want them to try and know me.

Because are they really even my friends. I get an apartment and all of a sudden I’m never alone. I like having friends it’s different for me but is it the right thing for me. I’m not someone who looks into the future. I like the now and being alone. It’s safe.

When others are involved there is uncertainty and pain. 

the Face of No sleep

This is the face of a college student I have had like 3 hours of sleep and I had a final at 12 30 and paper due at 4 and a class that lasted from 2 till 3:15. Now I am taking an online class from 4 till 6 and then I have work. This is the last stressful day hopefully. 

I'm a scholastic cheater sorry blogger

I’m sorry my followers but I have been cheating on you with another blog. Don’t worry its for a class so as soon as its over which is in the next week all my blogging time will go to you. I had a wonderful idea though from my assignment. What if I added podcasts to my once in a while blogging? I recently did one for an assignment and I think I did great. I had to make an outline for the class as if I was expecting to continue this podcast over the span of five weeks so I did. And now I think I want to actually do it. I’m going to post the link to the blog and let me know what you think. I might just go with it. 

The Real Way Podcast Ft. Ell Maxwell

Shafer really?

My feet hurt from working so hard. But I have to let the world in on my job and my findings of Shafer. So I have been sitting back catching the tee’s as my friends would like to say, and all the girls have either had sex with someone working at Shafer or one of the boss’s.

Crazy hu, so naturally they are all trying to get at me. But I have been to busy trying to get the hell up out of there or getting a pay raise. This one girl that use to work with me, not I said use to… she was stealing cans and cans of food and bags and bags of noodles home everyday, crazy right well she got fired. I was a little happy because I never really liked her. She wasn’t about her shit and would put all the works on me.

Then I had one of the new guys who didn’t know that I don’t deal with Shafer employees ask me for my number it was so sad because I new and everyone around know that he wasn’t getting my number. No one there not even the boss has my number. They email me if they need me to come in. So I tired to nicely say no. But that wasn’t the end of it. The next day he came up to me and asked again and when I said no he said “im a get your number sooner or later”. WOW Shafer guy wow. 

We Running Things

Its finally drawing near to the ending of the semester. No more will I be a junior. Senior year should be a thrill but where will I live. What will be of my car? There are so many uncertainties. As far as the summer goes it sounds like it may be a breeze just hoping I still have a job at Shafer over the summer we will see how that plays out. If not I guess I’ll be jobless and penny less.

"15 theres still time for you" 100 years Five for Fighter .

Life what can you say it has its twist and turns. But I can say I’m not where I want to be for the rest of my life so I have not started looking for anything stable as of yet as in relationships. But at dinner my friend asked a question that I have not been able to get out of my head. All the while I’m suppose to be studying for this test in a few hours. But he said at this point in your life do you think you have gained any life long friends? And I really had to think for a while. Well at dinner I gave the answer of the 7 close people to me. But I can’t really say for sure that these people will be life long friends. When are you suppose to know who your life long friends are. Is there some type of application? I would guess that college is the best place to meet these people because in all the movies you see the main characters meet their friends in college be it a sorority or a fraternity or roommates what have you. So am I behind have I lost my friends or am I suppose to keep looking. Because when I was elementary I swore that the girls in my basketball team was going to be my friends for the rest of my life. Well my mom cut that short.

The only dilemma that I have with this is you never really know who your friends are until you go through life changing situations. Or sometime you have a friend that isn’t really a friend and you never really know. Like what if you have a friend and the whole while they were talking about you to another group of friends or their diary? Or what if you say you have found your life long friends but then you don’t remember to add a friend in the list then that friend will be mad. I’m going to keep thinking on this topic but I just wanted to share some of my thoughts with the web. 

100 years Five for Fighter is the song playing as I write this. 

Oh last thing

I burnt myself at work. 

On my face

Whats been up with me

I know it’s been a while since the VCU upset at the final 4 but everything at school has gone back to normal. The basketball dudes are with the normal groupies and everything. I hope they get something more then some azz out of this accomplishment.

Mean while during the final 4 game I was visiting a friend in Philly for his 21^st birthday and let me tell you he was the perfect host. We had all the fullages necessary to have a great party. However because he is a dancer there were days when I had to beg him to go and find something to eat. I been telling people he doesn’t eat but what I should have said is he forgets that he needs to. There is nothing wrong with that I think. Because in high school I was the same way, with all the appearances and play practices and late night meetings I lost track of time when I was hungry.

It wasn’t until I got to college where food was the only place where everyone congregated at that I really began eating again. But at my friends school they don’t have a dining hall and they are all dancers. So needless to say food isn’t a top priority. But I did have a blast I was debating on going again but then I would have to take off of work again. Something I said I would only do for impotent things like best friends birthday, family graduations, ect.

Then this week I worked till close on two of the worst days Monday and Tuesday and what made it bad is that we were having people come in to inspect the place. So you know what that means… management wanted us to clean extra hard. So I got home at about 1:40 the first night and 1:30 the next night. Needless to say when I got a chance to take back my wind on Friday I realized that I had received two 0 in one of my easy classes. I cant let that happen again. Even though they are easy they are still 3 credits 

VCU BABY

"You don't wanna go to warrrrrrrrrr.....

With the RAMSSSSSS!

Don't start no stuff won't be no stuff."

BOUW!!!

What you can buy with money

The other day I watched a movie on HBO and basically there was this couple got married and wanted to start a life. So they started to build a house. Unfortunately they ran into a hard time with money kind of like times are now. So they were trying to find a way to make up the money. Any who they end up at a casino and a man (rich man) offered to buy the girl a dress and she said “the dress is for sale and I’m not” well that only made the rich man want her more. Well he did buy her and she ended up with him for a while. And she probably would have stayed had he not told her that there were millions of more women that he had taken from their men with this whole buying thing. I loved the movie because I’m a hopeless romantic. And I love clothing and I would love for a rich man to swipe in and buy me all I want. 

Spring Break In NY

I had a great time during spring break I keep telling people of I didn't do much just went to NY for a day. And that’s a lie I had a blast. I need to have more day trips like this in my life.

Sweaters

The winter is running away from us and its time to put the sweaters to rest; However I haven’t had the chance to ware all of my sweaters as of yet. So I decided to dedicate a post to sweaters everywhere. Like who doesn’t like sweaters. Some of my best winter memories involved me wearing sweaters. Like Christmas, thanks giving dinners, house parties (and yes I wore a sweater to a house party and I had the time of my life). Fun fact for my interview in high school at Duke Ellington I wore a sweater.

Think about when you watch movies and the couple is snuggled up in the house watching a movie right before the monster or someone comes in to interrupt. They are typically wearing a sweater. For about three birthdays straight my grandmother bought me different Disney sweaters, and still wares them to this day. I’m in class thinking of how sad people would be with out their sweaters, so I need to post this and get back to listening. Hear are some pictures I found enjoy. 

Time flys

I’m back from spring break and let me tall you I feel like school is about to be over in a jiffy. There is a lot that I haven’t had a chance to do. Like settle on a place to live for next school year. However I see more of the things that I have been able to do; like I have a job. I work five days a week and I’m making the money I need to not put such a financial strain on my parents. So I don’t want to down play my achievements by thinking of all the goals that I had that will not come true this semester. Because I’m not a quitter and best believe ill be right back at it next year. 

Trina Got in a Fight

So today I had almost the worst day. I woke up to aunt flow. Then I realized a lot of my homework was past due so I hade to basically get that done. But I’m not out of the bed yet. So my eyes are close and my phone starts ringing, I think it’s a text message so I just press the button to read it. However it’s a call…. From my father. I hung that phone up so fast. That’s for another day.

The next thing I know my step dad is hitting me up to get my paper work done for this school funding for senior year. That whole thing went smoothly a guy in the tax office has a crush on me and my step dad saw a old school fling. But the shit hit the fan when I went to the OSSE office where you get the award letters and all that. Now mind you I did not know that the only award I was applying for was TAG. In the past years I had been able to apply for TAG and LEAP, I ask the guy why is it that I did not get the LEAP this year. He pompously says oh you should know that. It’s dead. I wanted to storm out but I keep my self together. Then he tries to tell me what I should be doing in school. Mind you this guy is probable 70 years old, I’m not lying he was so old he could barely type on the key board and asked for help taking out the staple. My face read all my expressions to him but instead of getting out of line I simply said “thanks for you help”.

Then I don’t know if I told you guys about my car. But I got the up close and personal. Ill post a picture. I really wanted to cry. And do you know my dad made me drive it around to get a estimate on it. I felt so embarrass but you know what it still runs. 

If you love me.

I really think these shoes would put some style back into my life.

With this job I just haven't had the time to take care of my fashion needs. Like my hair, its been a month i missed my check up with my stylist. And guess who she is...... ME. Thats sad. Oh and the gym omg i haven't broken a sweat in there for a month now. All this started right along with my job. I need to find a way to fit Me back into my life. 

Amazing

To much talent and guess what he goes to my college i'm kind of pressed.

Willow - 21st Century girl

She is really doing her thing I like this song. 

Bad Girls Club

I'm a little mad that I haven't been able to keep up with the show this year.

C Scholar

I first meet C Scholar when we were both freshmen at VCU what seems like so long ago is still very fresh in my mind. He was always a very smooth guy catching the attention of all the ladies. This past week he caught the attention of more then the ladies as he was recognized as one of the best new underground artist out of VA at the DMV Awards. I have added the video that was made to give his fans a behind scenes view of his trip there.

I see nothing but greatness for people with this type of drive. His image has changed a little bit from the young child with braids to now the grown and a sexy man. Follow him on twitter and hopefully you will fall in lust to. Because as one of his songs say he is the perfect gentlemen. 

C Scholar Twitter Page

A local radio stations take on Mr. C Scholar

Really girl???

Now she needs to let that one go.

To cute

This pic is to cute. 

Yess Nikki

This is a second friend who also blogs so check him out to..

infinitiandbeyond

My friends are Crazy

So I was looking at a friends blog and this is the first thing I saw. Needless to say I had a good laugh. Check out the blog hes not better then me but he is still good lls. 

Park. Bench. Talk

Baby food

I saw this add today and it was to cute I had to promote for it.